Sunday, December 07, 2008

About this decison to retire

I have been surprised by the reaction I have received of telling others that I am retiring and moving to Oregon to write. As an act of faith. This literally is an act of faith. I know every logical reason why I should not do so. Yet, I know, I absolutely know this is the time. In spite of the great economic crisis. If I wait until the economy recovers, this book will not get written.

I said I know every logical reason. I know it seems I ought to be able to write this book while I continue to work at my present job. I am moving to Oregon for the energy of the trees and the mountains and now I have learned perhaps of the sea as well. I feel I am being directed to the coast as a location. We will see when I arrive. I am moving so that I can eliminate the distractions that seem to surround me. Family, friends, girlfriends, work, counseling. All provide distractions. Even this blog is a distraction at times but it will still be the best way to track my progress.

My pension is sufficient to pay my bills leaving very little for living expenses. There are ways around this including housesitting, caretaking or even a part time job. Yes, I have a perfectly good job and it makes no sense to leave it to go to Oregon to write and have to work a part time job to do so. But you see, you are thinking with you mind, with your logic. I am acting with my heart and my faith. It will all work out. I see the perfection of it all, of my life. I accept the perfection of all of my life.

It was just a year ago that I set up housekeeping but I will now sell all that out. For me it makes no sense to store stuff when I don't know where I'll live in year's time. The cash I raise along with five weeks vacation pay will be sufficient to get me to Oregon and to set me up for awhile.

During this past week, I signed my retirement papers and turned them in. My last day of work is January 30, 2009. I plan to hold a small retirement party and then cross the country with stops in Iowa, Missouri, California and finally Oregon. I don't exactly know where I'll end up.

There is no logical way that I can explain to you why I am doing what I am doing. I can only tell you that it is time for me to act. I have long known about this book and it is now time to write it. Please know that I am acting from my heart and from my faith.