How Is It?

How is it that I can call myself a messenger of God? How is it that I can call myself a Prophet? How is it that I can call myself a Spiritual Leader? These three statements seem contrary to everything most people know about me. They have long seen me as fun-loving, sarcastic, funny, earthy and singularly generous – but spiritual doesn’t seem to fit with my image. I have lived life fully. I have loved many women. I have had girlfriends while I was married. I have had young girlfriends. I have had an active sex life. I enjoy to gamble – particularly Texas Hold’em Poker. I have openly shared all of this. I don’t seem to understand what the word discreet means. I seem to have reveled in living an unrighteous life.

Now I come along and announce I am retiring to write a book – a spiritual book. Not just any spiritual book but one that I claim I am receiving from God. I openly have declared that I hear the Voice of God. Suddenly I have revealed that I am not just a spiritual person, but a deeply spiritual person. Yet, I have not regularly attended church services in over a decade. How can I expect others to accept this aspect of me? How is it that I can say and do these things?

I want you to know that I have struggled over the last few weeks on how to answer this question. I have decided that about the only way I can do so is to share some of my writings about this subject.

If you have pondered this question then you are not alone. Many of my friends and my family members have asked How is it? Some have asked me directed. Others have asked themselves the question. It is often in the back of everyone's mind. I understand this. And you may be surprised to know that I too have long pondered this question. There is no quick and easy answer. My Journey of the Heart has been long. It has been funny as it has been frustrating. It has been profane as it has been profound. I have questioned my experience, my beliefs and my faith. I understand you questioning it. I have attempted to answer this question in a lengthy article I have posted on From The Barn. If you have seriously pondered this question, I hope you will take the time to read the article.

As always, your comments - good or bad - are welcome. Your comments remind me that all of this is worth while and I should keep on keeping on.


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