On August 20th I started a lengthy writing with God that took several days to complete. In some ways I wish it was possible to post the entire writing but when I typed it up, it ended up being 27 pages long. I started this writing telling God that I thought my move to Oregon and all it represents was possible, but not probable. I realized that there were just too many obstacles to overcome - including my financial obligations. From this start this writing went on quite a journey.
Moving to Oregon to write a book has raised lots of concerns and worries and fears. God and I spoke about my concerns as well as miracles, the burden of this book, types of faith and I even challenged God. Yes, I said I challenged God. While I may be afraid to make this move, I am more afraid to not make this move. I decided I would use my vacation in January to go to Oregon and start this book. I challenged God to meet me there and his response was: "I would rather we continue to make a commitment to your preparation keeping the timeline flexible. " My immediate response to that was not one of understanding but of frustration and irritation.
I waited until the next day to respond to it.
I realized making such a demand was just setting myself up for disappointment. I asked if I was really prepared. God and I reviewed my preparation over the years. Finally I asked what other preparation I needed. And God responded with:
Writing such a book is not something you do but something you are. It has to become part of your beingness. Even now this book is blooming in your beingness as you have been caught up in the doingness of it.
You have long understood that writing such a book is something you have to do. You have got caught up with all the doingness that is needed to create a time and space to write this book. But just now, in these recent times, within these past few writings, it has started to come into your being, into your beingness.
This book is not something you do, it is something you are.
My transformation started with that statement. I realized I had been caught up with the doingness of the book rather than the beingness of it. So I made three very powerful statements of my state of being. Let me share an excerpt from the writing. (God's voice is this color.)
I am a messenger of God.
I am a spiritual leader.
I am a prophet.
These are not titles of what I do – it is what I am.
I noticed you changed the order from the above list. Is it difficult for you to prioritize this list?
It is difficult to separate the three but I realized that I am primarily a Messenger of God.
How did you come to this conclusion?
Not much to conclude. I am a messenger of God. I am that. The spiritual leadership and being a prophet are just different aspects of being your messenger. I am that. I am that I am.
And how does that apply to our book , to being our book?
Being your messenger is not what I do, it is what I am. I can come up with every logical reason you can imagine for why I should not move to Oregon to write a book. There are obstacles in my way for doing so – obstacles of my own making – but perhaps the biggest obstacle is myself. I get too caught up in the doingness of it that I forget the beingness. I have stated that writing this book is something I must do. But that statement does not indicate the degree of my convictions. This book is part of my very being. I will never be satisfied, my soul will not be satisfied until this book is written. Even then I know my soul will not be satisfied as it will see the writing of the book as only the beginning.
It all begins with the book.
My spiritual leadership perhaps.
Let’s not get sidetracked with the aftermath of the book. Please continue your dissertation on this book being part of your beingness.
This book is not something that is in my mind . . . or my heart . . . but is in my soul. It is part of my beingness. I think that is what I meant when I challenged you to meet me in Oregon. Saying that I would use my vacation was my way of trying to play it safe. Saying damn the consequences let’s do it, was an expression of my beingness. It is a very real reflection of my soul.
Do you mean to say that your soul does not care about your well-being?
Let’s say not in the same way my mind does. As I say that, I am also very aware that my soul is a much more powerful creator than my mind is.
What does that mean to you?
Ultimately, my soul is in charge. My soul is my beingness, my beingness is my soul.
Say that again. Slower.
My soul is my beingness, my beingness is my soul.
Somewhere within this discussion, I was transformed. Literally transformed. I stepped away from doingness and into beingness. I was profoundly changed. Within a few lines of text I was profoundly changed. I sat and pondered this change and I came to several understandings which I will share:
My soul, my very being is in charge. After more pondering, I realize that my soul is not just a powerful creator but is equal to you (God) in creating ability. I have no reason to be of concern for my well-being.
The above statement surely is an indication of just how profound of a transformation I made. I have filled hundreds of pages with discussion with my worries and concerns about my move to Oregon. And now . . . I have no reason to be of concern for my well-being. I pondered this thought and share another excerpt:
It is not that my soul will take care of it – but that my soul already has.
Please expound upon that.
It is not if I will retire and find another income but that I already have.
It is not if I will move to Oregon but that I already have.
It is not if I have written the book but that we already have.
If is not if it will be published but that it already has been.
If is not if people will love the book but that they already do.
Yes, yes and yes. This does not come from your doingness but your beingness. We have spend hundreds of pages and years preparing you for these moments.
I don't know if these words and excerpts can explain just how profound of a transformation I went through. For the first few days I was in a euphoric state. I didn't write. It was difficult to do so -- I no longer had worries or concerns -- there was nothing to ask about. I was aware that on a soul level, I knew everything -- I had lost my curiosity.
While I did tell others, including my precious aunt, about this transformation; it has taken me this long to figure out how to blog about it. I don't think it does justice in explaining the experience.
But the aftermath of all this is that I have applied for my retirement papers and will most likely retire on February 1 and move to Oregon. I'm not sure how all of this will unfold. I am as curious as you are but I am not worried or concerned. Not even with all the recent Wall Street collapse My soul is in charge and I have no reason to be of concern for my well being. And that is perfect.
Sunday, October 05, 2008
Friday, August 15, 2008
A continuing problem
I have a problem with this blog. I have said that it is difficult to keep it current. As I write nearly on a daily basis, it is difficult to keep things typed. Case in point is the post that will follow this one. I think all of my writings are interesting yet there are some writings that have more impact than others. Occasionally information is shared that is profound. And occasionally I receive a revelation. That is I receive information that I did not know before that reveals the nature of something I did not know before. That is exactly what happened during the writings of August 2 & 3.
I received a revelation about intercessional prayer. There were parts of that writing that left me stunned. It took me two days to receive this message. I don't think I will ever look at intercessional prayer the same way as I once did.
I apologize that I didn't get it typed until now. I guess I could blog about what I'm receiving as I'm receiving it but if I do that, then I won't be able to share an excerpt until a later date. So tell me, what would you prefer?
I received a revelation about intercessional prayer. There were parts of that writing that left me stunned. It took me two days to receive this message. I don't think I will ever look at intercessional prayer the same way as I once did.
I apologize that I didn't get it typed until now. I guess I could blog about what I'm receiving as I'm receiving it but if I do that, then I won't be able to share an excerpt until a later date. So tell me, what would you prefer?
Friday, August 08, 2008
An Excerpt from July 27, 2008
No explanation necessary other than: My comments are in this color and God's responses are in this color.
So what’s on your mind?
You and Oregon.
How so?
You are worried.
I am always worried. I am not sure that your attempt to comfort/calm me works. Discussion about Oregon often make me feel anxious and often – frustrated.
What you mean is that it causes you to hope. Do you really fear to hope?
I guess I do. No, no that’s not right. I know I fear to hope. Or maybe I like to hope in secret.
You fear to hope because you do not want to be disappointed again.
True enough. Is that such a bad thing? I found it easier to stay in the moment and just let it unfold if I don’t get quite so involved.
How can you not be involved?? After all, it is you who is going to receive the book.
I will be glad – honored beyond belief – to receive your book. It is the process of getting there that I am not enjoying. I would have to check my past writings but it has been at least three years and maybe even five years that we have been discussing this. Many times I have gotten my hopes up only to be disappointed. I would rather wait until it unfolds rather than be disappointed – again. Frankly, you are not very accurate in your timing.
I beg to differ. My timing is perfect as everything about me is perfect. It is your interpretation of my timing that is inaccurate. Be that as it may
EXCUSE ME! I hate to interrupt
You don’t hate to interrupt anymore than I do. (Irony intended.)
Be that as it may
Cute. You are being very cute this morning.
May I continue?
Heaven forbid that I interrupt your interruption.
In these many writings you have, indeed, named specific times that I would be moving and I am still here.
I can answer this in two ways. One, I will remind you that you receive my message through your filter of reality. It may be your who is projecting these time lines. You often speak of your feelings of a timeline. I often go along with that because it serves my purpose or more accurately, my purpose of the moment, my purpose of that one writing.
That feels like such a bullshit answer. Never try to bullshit a bullshitter.
Trust me. I am the ultimate bullshitter. As I am the ultimate of anything and everything. You have no idea what my bullshitting looks like – trust me – I have not and am not currently bullshitting you. But I will remind you that I will use every means available to me to communicate my message – and yes, that means I would bullshit you if I deemed it necessary. I would even lie to you.
Stop. Stop right there. There is no way that anyone reading this is going to believe that God just said that – that God would lie if necessary. God does not lie. Period. God is truth. God does not lie.
You are correct. God does not lie but there can be truth in a lie if it serves my purpose. If telling you that you are moving in the spring or fall or whatever season I state is not true in the moment that I tell you so but serves the purpose of preparing ultimately for that trip – does that not serve the truth of purpose?
Let’s just say that I get that – and I’m not saying I do – but if I did – then how am I to trust these writings? How am I trust that I am actually going to retire and move to Oregon at the first of the year? How am I to trust these writings? How am I to trust that I am hearing the voice of God?
You can’t. I’m making all of this up. So are you. You are making this all up. Don’t you remember this from the Conversations With God material? We both are making this all up. We are holding this conversation because that is how you created it.
I should offer an explanation about God lying. This writing was ten pages long and this is another excerpt from this writing.
I guess it is time we discuss the statement you made earlier.
Yes, I guess it is. You understand why I said I would lie if necessary?
It took me a bit because that statement is contrary to my beliefs and my experience.
Really? Maybe you miss the point of why I said it.
Ok. Okay. So I admit that I have thought you have lied to me at times.
Not in the moment of hearing my words but when certain events have not come true?
Exactly.
Do you remember our discussions about being a prophet and being a false prophet? Do you remember what you learned about being a prophet from other sources as well?
That if a prophet gives a reading – that is receives what he receives – and that information is used to change the circumstances that reading was about and the prophecy does not come true then the prophet may be appear as a false prophet but has served his purpose nonetheless. He spoke the truth in the moment.
Stay tuned for other excerpts.
So what’s on your mind?
You and Oregon.
How so?
You are worried.
I am always worried. I am not sure that your attempt to comfort/calm me works. Discussion about Oregon often make me feel anxious and often – frustrated.
What you mean is that it causes you to hope. Do you really fear to hope?
I guess I do. No, no that’s not right. I know I fear to hope. Or maybe I like to hope in secret.
You fear to hope because you do not want to be disappointed again.
True enough. Is that such a bad thing? I found it easier to stay in the moment and just let it unfold if I don’t get quite so involved.
How can you not be involved?? After all, it is you who is going to receive the book.
I will be glad – honored beyond belief – to receive your book. It is the process of getting there that I am not enjoying. I would have to check my past writings but it has been at least three years and maybe even five years that we have been discussing this. Many times I have gotten my hopes up only to be disappointed. I would rather wait until it unfolds rather than be disappointed – again. Frankly, you are not very accurate in your timing.
I beg to differ. My timing is perfect as everything about me is perfect. It is your interpretation of my timing that is inaccurate. Be that as it may
EXCUSE ME! I hate to interrupt
You don’t hate to interrupt anymore than I do. (Irony intended.)
Be that as it may
Cute. You are being very cute this morning.
May I continue?
Heaven forbid that I interrupt your interruption.
In these many writings you have, indeed, named specific times that I would be moving and I am still here.
I can answer this in two ways. One, I will remind you that you receive my message through your filter of reality. It may be your who is projecting these time lines. You often speak of your feelings of a timeline. I often go along with that because it serves my purpose or more accurately, my purpose of the moment, my purpose of that one writing.
That feels like such a bullshit answer. Never try to bullshit a bullshitter.
Trust me. I am the ultimate bullshitter. As I am the ultimate of anything and everything. You have no idea what my bullshitting looks like – trust me – I have not and am not currently bullshitting you. But I will remind you that I will use every means available to me to communicate my message – and yes, that means I would bullshit you if I deemed it necessary. I would even lie to you.
Stop. Stop right there. There is no way that anyone reading this is going to believe that God just said that – that God would lie if necessary. God does not lie. Period. God is truth. God does not lie.
You are correct. God does not lie but there can be truth in a lie if it serves my purpose. If telling you that you are moving in the spring or fall or whatever season I state is not true in the moment that I tell you so but serves the purpose of preparing ultimately for that trip – does that not serve the truth of purpose?
Let’s just say that I get that – and I’m not saying I do – but if I did – then how am I to trust these writings? How am I trust that I am actually going to retire and move to Oregon at the first of the year? How am I to trust these writings? How am I to trust that I am hearing the voice of God?
You can’t. I’m making all of this up. So are you. You are making this all up. Don’t you remember this from the Conversations With God material? We both are making this all up. We are holding this conversation because that is how you created it.
I should offer an explanation about God lying. This writing was ten pages long and this is another excerpt from this writing.
I guess it is time we discuss the statement you made earlier.
Yes, I guess it is. You understand why I said I would lie if necessary?
It took me a bit because that statement is contrary to my beliefs and my experience.
Really? Maybe you miss the point of why I said it.
Ok. Okay. So I admit that I have thought you have lied to me at times.
Not in the moment of hearing my words but when certain events have not come true?
Exactly.
Do you remember our discussions about being a prophet and being a false prophet? Do you remember what you learned about being a prophet from other sources as well?
That if a prophet gives a reading – that is receives what he receives – and that information is used to change the circumstances that reading was about and the prophecy does not come true then the prophet may be appear as a false prophet but has served his purpose nonetheless. He spoke the truth in the moment.
Stay tuned for other excerpts.
I find it difficult
I find it difficult to keep this blog current. First I must receive the writing. You might be interested to know that I spend a lot of time writing. I go out on my porch and I greet God good morning and it goes from there. Often I spend two or three hours on one writing. Particularly the lengthy ones. I never know where a writing is going to go and it might take even longer. One writng might continue over several days. I might receive several writings in one week and it's difficult to keep my typing current.
So if you are watching this blog on a daily basis, then you are going to be disappointed. But if you do check back from time to time, I think you will find the excerpts worth the wait.
Sorry, but at this time I am going to post files of the entire writings.
Stay tuned.
So if you are watching this blog on a daily basis, then you are going to be disappointed. But if you do check back from time to time, I think you will find the excerpts worth the wait.
Sorry, but at this time I am going to post files of the entire writings.
Stay tuned.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Excerpt from July 15, 2008
It had been nearly eight months since I communicated with God. I had tried in June to write but it had been rather choppy. I wondered if I could once again establish a connection with God that would flow as it once had. This writing went on to be some seven pages long. And yes it did flow. I haven't decided if I will provide a link that would give you assess to the entire writing or not. I'm not sure there is much interest in reading the entire document. I include a couple excerpts from that writing.
My comments are in this color and God's response are in this color.
I felt/feel like I might have caused a delay by not being in daily communication with you.
I tell you once and for all: you have not delayed anything. Frankly, you are not a powerful enough creator to stop that which I have put forth. Oregon continues. It has never stopped. Your preparation continues. It continues to this day and includes this day. It includes the reading of the writings of 2007 and it includes this writing. Nothing has changed! Nothing!
Recently during a physic reading I had been told of three great links I needed to break to leave the area. This excerpt is discussing these three links.
of three last great links that you must break to enable you to leave. These links have very much kept you anchored to this area. The first you have broken (divorce) and you are working on another at the present time. (relationship break up) The third is your job and it will be the hardest link to break.
Of this I have no doubt.
I am glad you understand this. It is going to require a great deal of energy and an ever greater portion of faith to do so.
I am aware that the current break up will give me more energy which I will need to break the final link.
Indeed you will. You will need to remain focused as there will be great turmoil as you end your job link. Retirement. Supplementary income. Possibilities will swirl around you but rest assured that if you remain focused on your end desire, you will see your through pathway the chaos and turmoil.
During much of the 2007 writings I felt I had the courage and faith to act; that in fact I was ready to act. But this year I have come to doubt that I have either. Retiring and moving to Oregon is an irreversible decision. My next few writings deal with those issues. As soon as I get them typed I will post excerpts.
My comments are in this color and God's response are in this color.
I felt/feel like I might have caused a delay by not being in daily communication with you.
I tell you once and for all: you have not delayed anything. Frankly, you are not a powerful enough creator to stop that which I have put forth. Oregon continues. It has never stopped. Your preparation continues. It continues to this day and includes this day. It includes the reading of the writings of 2007 and it includes this writing. Nothing has changed! Nothing!
Recently during a physic reading I had been told of three great links I needed to break to leave the area. This excerpt is discussing these three links.
of three last great links that you must break to enable you to leave. These links have very much kept you anchored to this area. The first you have broken (divorce) and you are working on another at the present time. (relationship break up) The third is your job and it will be the hardest link to break.
Of this I have no doubt.
I am glad you understand this. It is going to require a great deal of energy and an ever greater portion of faith to do so.
I am aware that the current break up will give me more energy which I will need to break the final link.
Indeed you will. You will need to remain focused as there will be great turmoil as you end your job link. Retirement. Supplementary income. Possibilities will swirl around you but rest assured that if you remain focused on your end desire, you will see your through pathway the chaos and turmoil.
During much of the 2007 writings I felt I had the courage and faith to act; that in fact I was ready to act. But this year I have come to doubt that I have either. Retiring and moving to Oregon is an irreversible decision. My next few writings deal with those issues. As soon as I get them typed I will post excerpts.
A Not-So-Subtle Hint
Some time last month, my beloved aunt gave me a not-so-subtle hint that I should post some of writings. I being the stubborn nephew that I am, I ignored her. But I did agree to read my writings from 2007. That inspired me to I start writing again.
And just for the record, isn't it wonderful to have an aunt who loves you enough to push you? By the way, where do beloved aunt's go to learn how to push just the right amount -- not too hard, not too soft and then to hold you accountable?
As my beloved aunt strongly suggested that I should share some of my writings that is exactly what I am going to do. At the moment, I think I will only be sharing excerpts from my current writings. On occasion I might include the excerpt from 2007 that God and I are talking about, but other than that, I will endeavor to keep this blog current.
Gosh, now do you suppose that will satisfy my sweet aunt? I do so love her.
And just for the record, isn't it wonderful to have an aunt who loves you enough to push you? By the way, where do beloved aunt's go to learn how to push just the right amount -- not too hard, not too soft and then to hold you accountable?
As my beloved aunt strongly suggested that I should share some of my writings that is exactly what I am going to do. At the moment, I think I will only be sharing excerpts from my current writings. On occasion I might include the excerpt from 2007 that God and I are talking about, but other than that, I will endeavor to keep this blog current.
Gosh, now do you suppose that will satisfy my sweet aunt? I do so love her.
My Journey of the Heart continues
My Journey of the Heart continues. It has been over two years since I last posted. I have been busy since then. In 2007, I wrote hundreds of pages of dialogue and felt I would soon be moving to Oregon to write a book. That ended in October of 2007 and no, I did not go to Oregon.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Chapter 12 complete
The book process is moving along. Chapter 11 is in the hands of my editor.
Chapter 12 - Angels Enter In was completed tonight and will soon be off to the editor as well.
It was fun to revisit how I came to communicate with angels. I am not unique in this ability and anyone reading this chapter can learn how to as well.
Reading Angelspeake -- How to Talk With Your Angels changed my life. It's one of the two most significant books of my life. Check out the Angelspeake website.
I will soon begin the next chapter, The Sisters.
Chapter 12 - Angels Enter In was completed tonight and will soon be off to the editor as well.
It was fun to revisit how I came to communicate with angels. I am not unique in this ability and anyone reading this chapter can learn how to as well.
Reading Angelspeake -- How to Talk With Your Angels changed my life. It's one of the two most significant books of my life. Check out the Angelspeake website.
I will soon begin the next chapter, The Sisters.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
NEXT!!!
At last I finished Chapter 11. I must say that I am glad the chapter is completed. I relive the experiences I share. Chapter 11 was no different. Once again I share a depression crisis. This crisis brought an end to a friendship. That is the story of Chapter 11.
I am happy to say that this brings an end to the telling of the great pain and sorrows of my life. This is the time in my life that I started more deeply exploring my spirituality. To a greater degree this is when I started to find peace and harmony in my life.
The book process continues.
Chapter 12 - Angels Enter In.
I am happy to say that this brings an end to the telling of the great pain and sorrows of my life. This is the time in my life that I started more deeply exploring my spirituality. To a greater degree this is when I started to find peace and harmony in my life.
The book process continues.
Chapter 12 - Angels Enter In.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Depression and Friendship
After a couple of fitful starts, I have once again begun to write the book. I was inspired by several things. Without the continued interest of family and friends this book would not come into being. I am sorry to say that I have ignored that interest in the last couple of months.
I particularly want to thank my editor. My dear friend holds a very strong belief in this book and its worth. His thoughtful and loving emails have kept this book in my mind even when I would choose to ignore it's worth. It is wonderful when a friend can hold a belief when you have lost it.
The other inspiration came from a message sent to me from someone who had not previously known of my ability to communicate with the divine. I had reluctantly shared the address of this blog -- mostly in fear of what the response might be. When I out myself as a communicator with the divine, I am never sure I am ready for the response.
I have received very little feedback about this book, about this blog. I'm afraid I had begun to believe that there is little interest and even less worth in it. I have come to beleive that only family and friends would find any worth in it. I came to doubt I could touch hearts with this book.
Then came the message. A short message that deeply touched me and reminded me that others do find worth in what I am sharing. I now keep that message posted just above my monitor to remind me what writing this book is about.
Now as to the actually writing. I have begun to work on Chapter 11 again. And it has been renamed. Instead of Depression and Angels it is now titled Depression and Friendship. It seems the Angels will have a chapter of their own.
I will keep you posted as how the chapter and book progressed. Meanwhile I encourage you to post comments. You can do so by clicking on the word comments.
I particularly want to thank my editor. My dear friend holds a very strong belief in this book and its worth. His thoughtful and loving emails have kept this book in my mind even when I would choose to ignore it's worth. It is wonderful when a friend can hold a belief when you have lost it.
The other inspiration came from a message sent to me from someone who had not previously known of my ability to communicate with the divine. I had reluctantly shared the address of this blog -- mostly in fear of what the response might be. When I out myself as a communicator with the divine, I am never sure I am ready for the response.
I have received very little feedback about this book, about this blog. I'm afraid I had begun to believe that there is little interest and even less worth in it. I have come to beleive that only family and friends would find any worth in it. I came to doubt I could touch hearts with this book.
Then came the message. A short message that deeply touched me and reminded me that others do find worth in what I am sharing. I now keep that message posted just above my monitor to remind me what writing this book is about.
Now as to the actually writing. I have begun to work on Chapter 11 again. And it has been renamed. Instead of Depression and Angels it is now titled Depression and Friendship. It seems the Angels will have a chapter of their own.
I will keep you posted as how the chapter and book progressed. Meanwhile I encourage you to post comments. You can do so by clicking on the word comments.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
A month?????
Wow, it's been over a month since I posted.
I didn't even edit Chapter 10 until last week. I have done a couple additional writings about the delay in the book, but they are basically the same message as I have previoulsy posted. "Everything is perfect. "
I did finally post excerpts from Chapter 9 and 10.
Trying to decided on what excerpt to use was particularly difficult for Chapter 9. This episode was the most emotional of my cancer experience. I have shared it with very few people. And was rather reluctant to do so in this book. But God felt it was significant to do so.
I do talk with God within Chapter Notes. These are the discussion we have about the chapters and my life. There are over 35 pages of dialogue within them and they will eventually be included as an appendix in the book. This is an excerpt from last Friday:
God's Voice is in this color.
No, not really. Even as life has not been as I might have predicted, I do know that it is perfect. Peace and harmony is the result of that knowledge.
So while we are discussing what you know, do you know that your current book is processing in perfection?
Yes.
Good. Why do I think there is “but” attached to that yes?
You know me well.
Indeed I do.
Yes, I know the book unfolds in perfection, BUT I am anxious to move on with it.
I KNOW you are, just as I also KNOW you will ALLOW it to unfold in perfection.
Yes, there is no doubt in my mind. When it unfolds in perfection, the chapters just flow from my fingertips to the keyboard. There is no use trying to force it.
I wish you could apply that same knowledge to ALL of your life. Allow it to unfold, don’t force it. Observe it, appreciate it, but at all times allow it unfold. Therein lies the peace and harmony.
I am coming to realize that.
With each day of experience comes a bit more of allowing on your part.
I would like to think so.
It is true.
And I’m coming to realize that allowing is much easier.
Certainly much easier than trying to “force” it to happen.
Certainly.
So, please allow yourself to make the adjustments to body, mind and spirit that are currently your experience.
Can I ask if we will return the book process soon?
Prior to making the move west, you will once again engage in writing a few more chapters in the current book. Do not look to complete that book prior to move. It may happen, it may not, but trying to force it to completion will only bring about a lousy book that will have to be rewritten. You would better off using that energy to make the necessary adjustments to your body, mind and spirit than forcing a book that would have to be reworked. Please, just allow it to unfold.
As you wish.
So, that's what's been going on for me. I will kept you posted as this book process continues to unfold. Thank you for you love and support.
I didn't even edit Chapter 10 until last week. I have done a couple additional writings about the delay in the book, but they are basically the same message as I have previoulsy posted. "Everything is perfect. "
I did finally post excerpts from Chapter 9 and 10.
Trying to decided on what excerpt to use was particularly difficult for Chapter 9. This episode was the most emotional of my cancer experience. I have shared it with very few people. And was rather reluctant to do so in this book. But God felt it was significant to do so.
I do talk with God within Chapter Notes. These are the discussion we have about the chapters and my life. There are over 35 pages of dialogue within them and they will eventually be included as an appendix in the book. This is an excerpt from last Friday:
God's Voice is in this color.
No, not really. Even as life has not been as I might have predicted, I do know that it is perfect. Peace and harmony is the result of that knowledge.
So while we are discussing what you know, do you know that your current book is processing in perfection?
Yes.
Good. Why do I think there is “but” attached to that yes?
You know me well.
Indeed I do.
Yes, I know the book unfolds in perfection, BUT I am anxious to move on with it.
I KNOW you are, just as I also KNOW you will ALLOW it to unfold in perfection.
Yes, there is no doubt in my mind. When it unfolds in perfection, the chapters just flow from my fingertips to the keyboard. There is no use trying to force it.
I wish you could apply that same knowledge to ALL of your life. Allow it to unfold, don’t force it. Observe it, appreciate it, but at all times allow it unfold. Therein lies the peace and harmony.
I am coming to realize that.
With each day of experience comes a bit more of allowing on your part.
I would like to think so.
It is true.
And I’m coming to realize that allowing is much easier.
Certainly much easier than trying to “force” it to happen.
Certainly.
So, please allow yourself to make the adjustments to body, mind and spirit that are currently your experience.
Can I ask if we will return the book process soon?
Prior to making the move west, you will once again engage in writing a few more chapters in the current book. Do not look to complete that book prior to move. It may happen, it may not, but trying to force it to completion will only bring about a lousy book that will have to be rewritten. You would better off using that energy to make the necessary adjustments to your body, mind and spirit than forcing a book that would have to be reworked. Please, just allow it to unfold.
As you wish.
So, that's what's been going on for me. I will kept you posted as this book process continues to unfold. Thank you for you love and support.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
A while
It's been a while since I have written anything. I received the title of Chapter 11 and then lost all motivation to write. I did spend some time editing the other chapters, but had no inspiration to continue my life story or the book.
At the same time I have spend huge amounts of time sleeping. In fact, it worried me a bit as it is one of the symptoms of depression. As always, I decided to talk to God about it. We had a long conversation and the following is just an excerpt from it. God's voice is in this color.
Now is not the time to write the next chapter in the story of your life.
It’s not? I thought there was a deadline for this book.
There is, but allowing yourself to be flexible within it serves you best. The past ten chapters have been very emotional for you. The next chapter will bring you to another crisis point within your depression. Then you will triumph over it and transcend it with the help of my angels. It is this act that set you on the path of becoming the spiritual leader that you are. Without the interaction with the angels, without the ability to communicate with them, you would have never come to communicate with me. This is a very significant chapter and needs to be told in the right way. You can not do so with the emotional baggage of depression hanging upon you. That is why you sleep. You are letting go of all the emotion that you have brought to the surface of your consciousness through your writing. Allow yourself to sleep. Allow yourself to rest. Soon enough the time will come to write again. At that time you once again will produce page after page.
I thought I was delaying the book.
You are. Perfectly so.
So that explains why I haven't posted for a bit. I will return to writing soon and meanwhile will be posting a few more excerpts.
Thanks for checking my blog. Your love and support mean much to me.
Rick.
At the same time I have spend huge amounts of time sleeping. In fact, it worried me a bit as it is one of the symptoms of depression. As always, I decided to talk to God about it. We had a long conversation and the following is just an excerpt from it. God's voice is in this color.
Now is not the time to write the next chapter in the story of your life.
It’s not? I thought there was a deadline for this book.
There is, but allowing yourself to be flexible within it serves you best. The past ten chapters have been very emotional for you. The next chapter will bring you to another crisis point within your depression. Then you will triumph over it and transcend it with the help of my angels. It is this act that set you on the path of becoming the spiritual leader that you are. Without the interaction with the angels, without the ability to communicate with them, you would have never come to communicate with me. This is a very significant chapter and needs to be told in the right way. You can not do so with the emotional baggage of depression hanging upon you. That is why you sleep. You are letting go of all the emotion that you have brought to the surface of your consciousness through your writing. Allow yourself to sleep. Allow yourself to rest. Soon enough the time will come to write again. At that time you once again will produce page after page.
I thought I was delaying the book.
You are. Perfectly so.
So that explains why I haven't posted for a bit. I will return to writing soon and meanwhile will be posting a few more excerpts.
Thanks for checking my blog. Your love and support mean much to me.
Rick.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Chapters 9, 10, & 11
Chapter 9 & 10 were both fun and difficult for me to write. Chapter 9 is about the many grand celebrations of Christmas held in my home. But to explain the joy of that holiday, I needed to relive a painful memory of a past New Year's Eve.
Additionally I start to share how depression has played a major part in my life. This continued into Chapter 10 - The Red Nose. Obviously either this was about being Rudolph or a clown. Yes, I was a professional clown. You'll get to hear about that part of my life too. There some cute stories to share.
I had a rather long discussion with God in Chapter Notes tonight. This is an ongoing dialogue about the book process. God and I discuss what to include or not include. I did not want to share part of the story that I wrote into Chapter 10. God prompted me to do so anyway. I am not sure if it will make the final edit, but for now it exists.
The good news is that during tonight's discussion God informed me that Chapter Notes will be included in the book. As of now, I have no plans to share excerpts from it on here. We shall see if that changes.
I also thought it was a bit premature to write the next chapter, but God assures me that it's not. So I will begin the next chapter in the next few days. Meanwhile I have some editing to do and stay tuned as more chapter excerpts are added to the Table of Contents.
Chapter 11 - Depression and Angels.
Additionally I start to share how depression has played a major part in my life. This continued into Chapter 10 - The Red Nose. Obviously either this was about being Rudolph or a clown. Yes, I was a professional clown. You'll get to hear about that part of my life too. There some cute stories to share.
I had a rather long discussion with God in Chapter Notes tonight. This is an ongoing dialogue about the book process. God and I discuss what to include or not include. I did not want to share part of the story that I wrote into Chapter 10. God prompted me to do so anyway. I am not sure if it will make the final edit, but for now it exists.
The good news is that during tonight's discussion God informed me that Chapter Notes will be included in the book. As of now, I have no plans to share excerpts from it on here. We shall see if that changes.
I also thought it was a bit premature to write the next chapter, but God assures me that it's not. So I will begin the next chapter in the next few days. Meanwhile I have some editing to do and stay tuned as more chapter excerpts are added to the Table of Contents.
Chapter 11 - Depression and Angels.
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
A True Friend
Last evening I worked on Chapter 3 & 4. I have an extraordiarny friend who is editing each chapter for me. His keen eyes catch the missed words, misused words and the typos. If you could see the marked up manuscript you would think I don't read them prior to sending them to him, but I do, I honestly do. (chuckling)
In addition to these tasks, this dear friend makes writing suggestions. He points out when my writing is confusing. (I think that's a euphemism for bad writing.) His insight is perfect and extremely helpful even when I ignore it. Thanks to his efforts I am able to present a excerpt or two for your perusal.
Saying thank you to such effort seems meager. I can only say that I love this man like a brother. For this is what we are -- spiritual brothers. One of the greatest gifts you can give or recieve, when you are not related by birth, is to recognize the kinship in another. If you stop and think about it, that's what spirituality is about -- being able to recognize your brother in everyone you meet.
Namaste. The God in me sees the God in you.
In addition to these tasks, this dear friend makes writing suggestions. He points out when my writing is confusing. (I think that's a euphemism for bad writing.) His insight is perfect and extremely helpful even when I ignore it. Thanks to his efforts I am able to present a excerpt or two for your perusal.
Saying thank you to such effort seems meager. I can only say that I love this man like a brother. For this is what we are -- spiritual brothers. One of the greatest gifts you can give or recieve, when you are not related by birth, is to recognize the kinship in another. If you stop and think about it, that's what spirituality is about -- being able to recognize your brother in everyone you meet.
Namaste. The God in me sees the God in you.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Excerpts
Several people have asked for excerpts from my book. I did include one in the posting of Chapter 7, but many have wanted me to post an excerpt from each chapter. I am working to add this to the blog. It will be several days before I accomplish this, so please come back to this blog often to check for updates. Of course, this adds the problem of deciding which excerpt to add. Oh well, such is the life of a writer. lol.
Additionally, as I have been sharing my experience of writing this book and will be sharing excerpts from it, I hope you will also share your thoughts and comments.
To do so, just like on the word comments and you will be able to add your posts. Others will be able to read your comments and may even choose to comment on your comments.
Meanwhile, I want to thank you for walking beside me as I share my Journey of the Heart.
Love & Hugs to you all,
Rick.
Additionally, as I have been sharing my experience of writing this book and will be sharing excerpts from it, I hope you will also share your thoughts and comments.
To do so, just like on the word comments and you will be able to add your posts. Others will be able to read your comments and may even choose to comment on your comments.
Meanwhile, I want to thank you for walking beside me as I share my Journey of the Heart.
Love & Hugs to you all,
Rick.
Next Chapter
Chapter 8 - Disillusioned
Another very emotional chapter during which, my father and I continue to heal our relationship, my mother-in-law passes away,I fulfill a life debt and disillusion my wife in the process and just when I think I am befriending my father, he dies of a massive heart attack. I relived those moments as I wrote this chapter.
Chapter 9 - Christmas and Depression
Another very emotional chapter during which, my father and I continue to heal our relationship, my mother-in-law passes away,I fulfill a life debt and disillusion my wife in the process and just when I think I am befriending my father, he dies of a massive heart attack. I relived those moments as I wrote this chapter.
Chapter 9 - Christmas and Depression
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Seeing Beyond the Collar
Chapter 7 - Seeing Beyond the Collar
It may surprise some who are reading this that there was a time I considered myself to be Catholic. Even then, I was on a path of spiritual growth. During this chapter I extensively share my Catholic experience.
Previously, I had shared an excerpt from Chapter 7 here. Now that I have decided to include excerpts from each chapter, I have removed it from this post.
Please watch for the excerpt to be listed under the Table of Contents.
I thank those who suggested the idea of listing excerpts as now I will be able to include longer excerpts than I would have in these posts.
It may surprise some who are reading this that there was a time I considered myself to be Catholic. Even then, I was on a path of spiritual growth. During this chapter I extensively share my Catholic experience.
Previously, I had shared an excerpt from Chapter 7 here. Now that I have decided to include excerpts from each chapter, I have removed it from this post.
Please watch for the excerpt to be listed under the Table of Contents.
I thank those who suggested the idea of listing excerpts as now I will be able to include longer excerpts than I would have in these posts.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
A little easier
Chapter 5 was a little easier to write. A few memories that brought a tear to my eye, but not the raw emotion of the last two chapters.
Chapter 6. Acts of God. This chapter promises not to be an emotional one either.
I find this book writing process interesting. As I have said, God is directing where it is going. I am quite aware that while 3 & 4 were emotional, the next chapters are a little lighter. I recongize this even as I fully realize there are more emotional chapters to come.
Chapter 6. Acts of God. This chapter promises not to be an emotional one either.
I find this book writing process interesting. As I have said, God is directing where it is going. I am quite aware that while 3 & 4 were emotional, the next chapters are a little lighter. I recongize this even as I fully realize there are more emotional chapters to come.
Friday, June 16, 2006
Chapter 3 & 4 completed.
Chapter 1 & 2 both were short chapters, just 3 or 4 typed pages. The next chapters were much longer. Chapter 3 was 16 pages and Chapter 4 was slightly longer.
Both of these chapters ended up bringing up a lot of emotions for me. In many ways, I relive the experience that I am writing about.
Both are complete.
Chapter 4. A Relationship Ended.
Chapter 5. The Power of Words.
Both of these chapters ended up bringing up a lot of emotions for me. In many ways, I relive the experience that I am writing about.
Both are complete.
Chapter 4. A Relationship Ended.
Chapter 5. The Power of Words.
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
The Process of the Book
I had lunch with a dear friend today during which I shared about writing this book I also shared how the process works. She thought it was interesting, and so I thought I would share it here.
There's actually two writings going on as I write this book. As you know, if you have been reading this blog, this book is written by God's suggestion.
In fact, I didn't think this book was starting when it started. I thought of it as a practice run at writing the book. Ok, so I had more than a little anxiety over actually starting the book. I was inspired instead to have a practice session and suddenly, I was writing the real book.
This whole idea of a practice book came up in a writing I was doing with God. As I found that so helpful, I have continued that writing. Now it's called Chapter Notes.
In this book process. I get an idea for the chapter title and some inspiration of where the chapter should go. If I get stumped, I then return to the Chapter Notes writing and have a short dialogue with God. In these Notes I might also discuss what I am including in the chapter and any problems I'm having emotionally with sharing my life experience.
My friend suggested it might be interesting to be able to read the Chapter Notes to see how the book was written. I don't know if I'll share them or not, but it is an idea for an appendix of some sort.
Chapter 3 is more detailed than 1 & 2 and I'm still working on it.
There's actually two writings going on as I write this book. As you know, if you have been reading this blog, this book is written by God's suggestion.
In fact, I didn't think this book was starting when it started. I thought of it as a practice run at writing the book. Ok, so I had more than a little anxiety over actually starting the book. I was inspired instead to have a practice session and suddenly, I was writing the real book.
This whole idea of a practice book came up in a writing I was doing with God. As I found that so helpful, I have continued that writing. Now it's called Chapter Notes.
In this book process. I get an idea for the chapter title and some inspiration of where the chapter should go. If I get stumped, I then return to the Chapter Notes writing and have a short dialogue with God. In these Notes I might also discuss what I am including in the chapter and any problems I'm having emotionally with sharing my life experience.
My friend suggested it might be interesting to be able to read the Chapter Notes to see how the book was written. I don't know if I'll share them or not, but it is an idea for an appendix of some sort.
Chapter 3 is more detailed than 1 & 2 and I'm still working on it.
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